Wednesday Morning

I woke up at around 12.30PM. My heart is aching abit. Cos thinking of DEAR. Only can look at his pictures, cannot see him. I really miss him so much. And its only been 2 days. How am I going to survive the remaining days. At least I'm going to Tioman for the weekend. There's something to take my mind off. Saw DEREK's friendster yesterday night. I think he has a new girl, called JOAN. She seems more his type. I think both of them are taking drugs. Its good that he has someone else now. Most likely he wont keep calling me anymore cos there's someone else already. I feel a bit funny. Is it because I still cannot put down our relationship? But I'm perfectly happy with my PAUPAU. I think its just that in my mind, I didn't think he would get another girl so fast. But I'm feeling better now. My mind is only PAUPAU, & no one else. I only love PAUPAU.

Had a butter bread, & cheese omelette for brunch. Was talking to DEAR on the phone as well. I miss him so much. He keeps talking about his experience in the toilet while I'm eating. Stupid DEAR. So erxin. Bleagh.

I love PAUPAU 1314.
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