Enlistment; Tears

Dear going in TODAY.
我真得很不舍得他.

We went to Sentosa on Sunday. It was such a fabulous day. No rain, partial cloudly. Simply perfect day with a perfect guy. (: Took quite a lot of pictures. But the stupid camera ran low on batt so quickly. Could have taken more. We went sun-tanning & drank a little. I didn't know Dear really cannot drink too much alcohol. I couldn't finish mine, so he helped drink some. In the end, he felt so unwell & had to throw up. OMG I felt super super bad. Why am I such a alcoholic. ): Dinner at Kofu. Next was Songs of the Sea. Entrance was free, thanks to Delia! YAY. After that we took CableCar to MtFaber. That place is so nice OMG I wanna go back there again. The Glass Bar is so pretty WOW.

Monday I cried for the first time with Dear. Haiz I feel super super sad. How can I bear to see him go just like that. I know its like NS & every guy has to serve it one way or the other, but but BUT ): At the MRT station, he had to go to his green line, & I had to go to red line. It was on different ways. I couldn't help it, my tears just started dropping when he kissed & hugged me goodbye. I was controlling, why did they come out. I was trying so hard not to cry, but its so hard. Since the 25th, we have been sticking together almost everyday. Now he's going to leave me for 2-3 weeks. How am I going to survive without him? I feel lonely. Its such a nice feeling to have him hug me to sleep. I love how he makes me feel. My temper is super super bad, I know. I'll try to control I promise! I just need a reminder every now & then. I'll change for his sake. All I'm hoping is that he won't leave me. I really love him. Its only a short period of time, but I've put my heart & soul into this relationship throughly. I love him super super lots. I really wish we can be together until 80 years old & more. I love him, I just can't say that enough.

Anyway I feel super super terrible. We have only been together for a short period of time, & I have already spent so much of his money. He also don't want to take back some of mine. I feel so bad!

I really love him. I don't feel this way when I'm with Derek. He is the only 1 who can make me feel this way. 我爱王俊鸿. I miss him already. & its not even a day yet. ):

All I have are my pictures. Dear I really miss u lots. I wanna fast-forward to 2 weeks later. I wanna see u again. I want hug hug. ):